Here's a fun game... err, at least I'm gonna pretend.
Instructions:
1. Read "Missed Connections" on Craigslist.
2. Keep track of ones you find amusing, or ones that remind you of feelings you've had.
3. Share them in an obscure way...
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ReplyDeleteRE :RE: Playing hard to get is a game:
This wasn't directed at you, trust me.
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RE: Playing hard to get is a game:
It is truly a shame that this is how you choose to perceive the situation.
Since this is your attitude, I view this as a blessing, not a loss.
I only hope you treat her better than you treated me.
Treat her with kindness, keep that mean streak of yours in check, and always give her the benefit of the doubt.
I wish you much luck.
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ReplyDeletePlaying hard to get is a game:
And sometimes when you play that game you lose.
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You'll never get it...will you?:
I really don't get you.
I thought I did-- so many years ago. When I used to think we were soul mates. When I didn't think there was another person that could ever make me happy. You lit up my world. You were also the one to tear it down.
A darkness has been lingering over me, and mostly it is caused by your emotional abuse over these past few years. You want me, you don't, you want me, you don't, you'll never leave me, to save a relationship, you have to ditch me. Time and time I watch you go, hurting...and stupidly I kept letting you back in.
But your behavior lately was the last straw. What you did to me...what you did when I needed us the most...I can never forgive. It went far beyond the trials of the heart and my "love" for you. In my darkest time, you'd rather give up everything that was between us so you would be comfortable. How does that feel?
So many times I've wanted to say, "fuck you" upon hearing from you. You make me angry. Anything that was between us has melted. I get annoyed with your messages, your calls, your emails. I want nothing to do with you now. I've found the strength, oddly enough, given to me by you when you decided to do the most indecent humanly thing possible.
You really are a villain. And worse, you think it's fixable. It's not.
You didn't think I was important enough to be in your life now, with your pretty little things surrounding you, so leave me alone.
You're not allowed back in.
It's so strong, you're afraid of it:
ReplyDeleteRather then face it, either to end it or start it, you want to give yourself an excuse to just drop it and run. Criminalize me in your head, with the help of your friends obviously, and just flick me out like a used ciggarette.
AM I right?
Do you really think I'm that terrible?
Do you think it's not a pain in my ass too? It's a bigger one, I have NOBODY to talk to about it. I have to give myself my own advice. Tell MYSELF what's safe, whats not. What's real, what's not. Do you have any idea what that's like?
I could, and should, be spending my minds resources on other things. But it's so easy to wander back with so many unanswered questions and loose ends.
I'm crazy, but not loony bin insane crazy. Only if you're not reading this... What made you click on the post anyway? Me? You? Or us? Which one did you feel?
So much brain matter, scattered. It doesn't have to be so complicated. I can see why one would want to just leave it be. It's a fucking deep, festering hole full of complications.
I simply want you to help me close it, because nobody else has the key. Everyone else would insist I'm talking to nobody, and it would end there. I just want you to let me know, without any doubt, how you feel. YOU feel. I wont use it against you, I swear.
Whatever it is I miss, I'm going to miss. Nothing will change that. But I could look back on it and feel good, rather then bad, and lost. Isn't that fair? Is there not one good piece of me you keep with you still? Nothing that keeps you going a little, makes you smile when smiling feels hard? Nothing?
RE It's so strong, you're afraid of it:
ReplyDeleteOk, Ill play along as if you're who I would like you to be even though I have a big feeling you're not. For the record it is strong but it is YOU who fears it.
Rather then face it, either to end it or start it, you want to give yourself an excuse to just drop it and run. Criminalize me in your head, with the help of your friends obviously, and just flick me out like a used ciggarette. ~ You dropped it, you criminalized me with the help of your friends.
AM I right?
Do you really think I'm that terrible? ~ At times. Yet why would I have been there dealing with everything for so long if I truly did feel that way?
Do you think it's not a pain in my ass too? It's a bigger one, I have NOBODY to talk to about it. I have to give myself my own advice. Tell MYSELF what's safe, whats not. What's real, what's not. Do you have any idea what that's like? ~ That is surely the blind leading the blind
I could, and should, be spending my minds resources on other things. But it's so easy to wander back with so many unanswered questions and loose ends. ~ Yeah, I know that one well.
I'm crazy, but not loony bin insane crazy. Only if you're not reading this... What made you click on the post anyway? Me? You? Or us? Which one did you feel? ~ It has always been us to me, the problem was it was you to you.
So much brain matter, scattered. It doesn't have to be so complicated. I can see why one would want to just leave it be. It's a fucking deep, festering hole full of complications. ~ Here is where I think maybe you are who I think you are.
I simply want you to help me close it, because nobody else has the key. Everyone else would insist I'm talking to nobody, and it would end there. I just want you to let me know, without any doubt, how you feel. YOU feel. I wont use it against you, I swear. ~ Close it? I never fucking wanted it closed. You obviously did thats why I ended it. You just cant complete anything. Commitments to yes or no are not your strong suit...duh
Whatever it is I miss, I'm going to miss. Nothing will change that. But I could look back on it and feel good, rather then bad, and lost. Isn't that fair? Is there not one good piece of me you keep with you still? Nothing that keeps you going a little, makes you smile when smiling feels hard? Nothing? ~So, its all back to you again? In the end its just about how you feel and how you perceive someone else feels about you? You don't want to work on anything you just want absolution?
This is my conclusion, yet I wish we had any chance at something more valuable.
"The wise skeptic does not teach doubt but how to look for the permanent in the mutable and fleeting."~
Ralph Waldo Emerson
RE: Dear Ex Lover:
ReplyDeleteThe thought that love is not good enough is lacking.
Enough love trumps everything else.
Sometimes you wake up after a daze of 4 years to realize that all that love you poured into someone is gone because they didn't deserve it.
And as much as you fight to retain that love you realize more and more, after looking through the last 4 years, that the person was never good enough for you.
I can't believe I ever fell for her. I can't believe the things I did for her.
And it's because she wasn't woman enough to stay, that I feel this way.